Dear beautiful beings, I hope you are well and if you aren’t that’s ok to be where you are right now and knowing that all moments pass. Even when we are in illness or emotionally troubled, no two moments are the same. So starting where we are, letting our body know that we are here for us and we are here to support us. Just having our presence is a powerful healer with energy and attention flowing into our body. With this ease of working with what is, we can begin to settle into our body and lean into gentleness. This may be a place in us where we can feel through memory of what gentleness feels like, a time that can be any time in the past, where we experienced how this felt. It may be someone whose kindness touched you and made you feel good and loved, and it may be a dear animal companion.
Just sitting with this feeling and let it nourish you as it begins to fill as much space as you have in this moment and whatever space it takes up is fine for now… as we do our best in any given moment and sometimes there’s more and other times we have less space. That’s ok, as many of us have a lot going on in our minds and our bodies and there’s no judgment on any of it, it just is as it is for now. If you can be here for you in this moment to nourish and support yourself with a feeling of tenderness and joy through a memory, this is all that’s needed and if you feel this is a struggle let go and feel yourself flow down the stream, and you can have another moment where it may be a better time to revisit your beautiful memory. Perhaps after some activity to release energy and hormones that build when we feel overwhelmed. Sit with this moment for the time you wish and place hands over heart and solar plexus to feel through your hands and incorporate more of this in your being. You may find this feeling comes sooner as you place your hands again at another time.
These little moments of meditation can help us build toward calming our body and mind and healing. Slow and steady, little by little, step by step, like all things we take one bit at a time and it’s enough. Take good care of you and much love, namaste, Aeve 🙏🏽😊💚🌿🌸
Beautiful photo by snowshoe hare 🌸
Awareness can feel like it comes at a cost, yet has a gift of ultimately freeing us from locked up pain. Once we see a way to move forward we have a choice to take a step towards healing or let the emotion resettle in the body. The key is to know how to do this. Keys are very powerful for unlocking energy and they can be a few words encoded with loving compassion. There’s no judgment and often this step is not taken until we come to a catalyst. All is good and this is to reach out to dear people who are suffering from the associated suffering of shame and the information is sent with pure love and non-judgment and becomes encoded and ready for when we ourselves are ready to take the step, in our own time.
Many who’ve suffered abuse have felt shamed by the person abusing and this is because the one abusing was most likely also suffering from shame in a perpetuating cycle of pain coming up to be released and unable to love and heal it, because shame is so incredibly painful we try to hide it from ourselves. During a direct emotional attack from an angry/frustrated person, the strong emotion is only relieved of the built up pressure and at the expense of themselves and/or someone who has directly received the brunt of their energy. This can also happen psychically and/or covertly (e.g. passive aggressive behaviour, silent treatment and gaslighting). Psychically we are very sensitive by nature and we feel the energy others generate from anywhere in the world, as we think of them we tune into their feelings.
When we grow up in a home with someone who holds anger and shame in their body, we absorb lot a toxic energy and behaviour this produces and which we learn from, as parents / caregivers / significant people are our models of how to be in the world. The toxic energy doesn’t feel good for our cells who are hard wired to move away from toxins and as children we’re trapped with it day and night for many years. Even though it may have felt deeply uncomfortable, cold, unfriendly, prickly, hostile etc, this became our knowledge of normality in the world. We may find that when we experienced warmth of any kind, although it felt so so good, we found it hard to relate to and in some way sabotaged it, and perhaps without really understanding why we did, and likely this was also stored in our shame bank for future recycling and added to the reasons why we feel we are never good enough. This way of thinking has been encoded within us then affects every thought, action and nuance of our lives from there on until we heal and replace it with other encoding of healing gentle thought/behaviours towards ourselves and which naturally extend to others who are in essence a reflection of how we see ourselves. As we give more and more unconditional loving kindness and gentleness to our body and especially be understanding of when we berate and put ourselves down and want to hide away for protection, it changes our very DNA and rewires our brain. This could simply be saying to ourselves, “Of course I did that,” or, “of course I said or thought that…”
Many of us went on to choose partners and friends who held the same kind of energy we grew up with because it felt familiar and also so we could heal ourselves by making things right with someone else as a proxy to our caregiver, only to learn that this rarely works in the ways we hope it will, because we often hope to change the other person and our healing needs us to unconditionally love and accept the whole of ourselves, and in time and not before we are ready, see the experiences have given us invaluable learning to grow from.
Releasing patterns of shame
We often find that when we’ve been shamed as children many many things over our lives cause us shame and this can have a cumulative effect as time goes on and new things and associations are added to the closet, with many things stacked on top of each other periodically coming back to what feels like an attack but is really a loving body asking us to heal so that we can stay optimally healthy. Our souls wants to show us that as we’ve never learned how to love, forgive and accept ourselves and release the energy charge these phenomena hold over us and it’s time to let our soul guide us in how to love ourselves and see ourselves as beings of love. The trauma we carry is capable of becoming PTSD with flashbacks and feelings taking us directly back into reliving the circumstances where we first felt shame and the feeling is directly related to fear of death by shame. The feelings are so very strong becuse they’re directly linked to our very survival. Of course we know that by themselves they will not kill us on the spot, but the stress of these thoughts produces hormones that weaken our body over time and some with PTSD reflect on their lived experience as feeling dead while they are alive, or not deserving to be alive. People who suffer from chronic anxiety / PTSD have the wiring in their brain set up to accommodate their state of constant fear and hypervigellance and are always looking out for danger in flight and fight added to the heaviness of unresolved emotion. In this state of being there is little space for other more pleasurable feelings that can be experienced in human form.
The message is for us to begin to believe in ourselves as a starting point, that we can learn to heal because research now shows us what we intuitively know, that our bodies are so very resilient and can rebuild and rewire beautifully when we support them with doing what we can to calm our thoughts.
Creating an essential safe space to heal
Trauma is so prevalent in our world and we might wonder where to begin our healing journey. The advice I give is to minimise / greatly reduce/ and (better still) stop watching TV, movies with violence and trauma. Listen to music that’s uplifting and peaceful. If you’ve never learned Reiki it’s a perfect tool. If you’ve learned Reiki and need a refresher, you may like to search for a list of self-treatment hand positions and some lovely music on youtube. If you would like to learn how to give Reiki to yourself and/or others, udemy.com offer heavily discounted courses. Also one of the most important but perhaps the hardest thing that I believe helps us the most, is creating space to heal and this may mean some distance from people who cause you trauma. For your health it’s worth doing what you can to protect your body and mind while you heal and perhaps in time you will be healed enough to reconnect without undoing too much of your good work. This is like the essential no contact after leaving an abusive person and completely cutting all communication that you know is only going to hurt you anyway and keep you stuck in confusion. Give yourself time out to heal and a place to begin the journey that takes as long as it needs to. Be patient with the process, as layers need to be shed naturally so as not to cause further harm. This is not an overnight or month long process, it can take years to unravel and heal what’s been happened to us since very early in our lives and forms the core of our human being.
We are very capable of healing – remember this – and your soul is your constant anchor and strength. We are also here for each other on the journey, understanding so very well because we also walk this path. I have faith that we will come through this together.
Much love and many blessings beautiful souls. Xx
The world of form is amazing,
with endless opportunities.
Each moment we see aspects of it both within and without,
as nuances and subtle emotions that feel part of our being.
As we experience our world, as we see and feel ourselves.
Our filters, beliefs and patterns that create our physical and etheric structures are frames for our experience. These too are ever changing.
They are why we look at the same form and see differently.
Like a bee with infrared vision sees and feels flowers.
We wonder how flowers appear and feel to myriads of beings, seen and unseen, and if flowers have a purpose for all.
Our world as a global entity affords us to sense and feel as sand is to shape and re-shape.
We are sand that responds to our thoughts and the sand that we perceive as separate is the same sand as our own creation.
Each form manifesting to create the whole experience.
The seer of our experience is ever loving, ever wise and ever allowing. It knows form is forever changing and everything is passing. Creating and playing an ancient game.
The soul knows that stories need to be played out to be seen. That eventually the experiencer sees they are playing and will know they can choose to continue the same story, create another story, and live more in the moment knowing all of this is illusory anyway.
The seer or soul is an anchor for our human experience. Always present to remind us of loving compassion and eternal love when we return to quiet from creation.
Many blessings and much love beautiful human souls,
Namaste. Aeve xx
Closing our eyes we lose sight of creation.. in a moment… it’s no longer in our view and we see a world in our mind.
Beyond that view is a great expanse where no boundaries are seen, as there is no form to separate. Only energy moving without judgment and thought, just pure energy.
Pure Love. Pure Soul. Pure You.
Many blessings beautiful souls, beautiful humans.
We see the suffering is vast and manifests in ways that we may not see directly relate to colonisation.. People who colonised this country and convict labourers understandably developed a hard view and we carry this in our psyche. We also carry the way that beautiful native people were treated and the generations of suffering. It’s written in the land and we are the land. As one energy we’ll feel what other’s feel and there’s a lot of healing to do.
Once the light of love and soul’s view is shone on this, we’ll see we’ve been caught in looping plays of energy that needs to experience and burn itself out. Once it does, the pure love, that’s always been with us and is who we are, radiates again in our body, as it did when we were born.
It takes as long as it needs to for us to see what we are experiencing is creation of beginnings and endings, and the true being of who we are is watching all of this and knows it has to be this way, so we can come back to the great love within. Our soul is an anchor and forever directing us to within to see the beauty of our true being and is where our healing is. Everything else is form that has been created and is forever changing as we shape it with our thoughts.
Many blessings beautiful souls.
Hello beautiful souls, how are you after another year has almost completed?
Perhaps we may not appear closer to our dreams and visions, but lots of foundational work has continued to shape the current landscape and we find we are where we need to be to facilitate the growth we needed to have. If we are closer to, or are already experiencing our dreams this year, then let’s enjoy this beautiful energy with one another, by sending healing energy to nourish and support our community.
In 2016 I was reminded that foundational growth doesn’t always appear to be much in the physical, but there’s really a lot happening to prepare the ground and foundations of a structure. Acknowledging that for many of us the past few years have felt like a long and arduous path and has been very hard and taxing for us, but inside of us we know the growth has been big.
We’re all where we need to be on this life’s path and only one thing is for certain, that the Earth continues to create and recreate with our energy. If we are to build something new in a space then the previous structure needs to first be dismantled. Sometimes we build over the top, but if the foundations are not sustainable then eventually it will break down for something new to be created anyway.
All of this is for our soul path to remain fluid and aligning with the energy of nature, rather than trying to push pull it to fill our voids. We may also see ourselves not getting caught up in pockets and games of illusion, as we have in the past. Many say to me their body can no longer carry out the old ways and I can very much relate as they feel very far from soul.
Nothing is fixed here, as much as we wish to create the illusion of security by attaching to things, we are reminded time and again of the impermanence here. We’ve needed to see this so that we can free ourselves from all kinds of conditioning and move freely with energy as our soul-selves and this is where we find the most enjoyment in life.
I’ve been very drawn to Ancient Aboriginal energy living close to soul. The beautiful connection with the land and knowing that all is one energy of love, abundance and sustenance and honouring the soul’s path.
These fundamentals haven’t changed.
Community is important to many of us, as is acknowledging what we really feel inside.
Let’s see what flows in this year and give some time now to seeing where our heart’s energy is, as this is what is leading us and this is what creates our life here. It’s the strongest energy in our body and is linked to what our soul has come here to do.
Take good care of yourself and nurture and nourish your body so that you can continue your journey in health. Do what you need to heal from the past as you are worth it and your soul continues to remind you, that you are a being of pure love and your birthright is to enjoy the physical experience and have what you need here to do this. The Earth continues to honour us and provide for us to be here and when we give our energy to the Earth, the Earth gives it back to us in a continuous loop of nurturing energy and is as natural as breathing.
Many blessings and much love to you beautiful soul and soul community. If you feel to share here at any time or with me you are very welcome.
Namaste, Aeve ?????????